SOME ADVICE TO MY WARD PART 2
While we both made mistakes, I realized what the issue was…
I admit, it took me a month or so to calm myself down despite all that’s been
happening in my surroundings. It also took me a few online classes of
self-healing & healing the wounds of my inner child to discover a few
important things.
The problem with Jess is her immaturity, granted she’s young.
& in hindsight, I’m surprised with the way I reacted to the entire situation.
Sure, she’s young & the way she reacted to important life situations were not
right…but that was not entirely her doing…at least not on purpose…
As I mentioned before, she has a horribly abusive mother, & she wasn’t allowed to spend any time with her father after her parents divorced. She had to fend for herself for who knows how long.
She had no positive mentor to look up to…
& then there was me…
Someone who wanted to take up the responsibility. The role of becoming a big sister figure, as well as show her how her mother should have treated her.
When we 1st met online, she kept asking me “Are you sure you wanna spend time with someone like me…are you sure…?”
& I took up the responsibility, of becoming someone she could look up to…
I was too blinded by my own problems, that I almost took it out on the 1 person who looks up to me. Just like my parents did while I was growing up.
I refuse to follow the negative traits of my parents, which was why I decided to take up mentoring in the 1st place. & to have Jess constantly come to me, just to talk things out…that’s a blessing for me.
Whether she follows my advice or not, we’ll see in time. However, I shouldn’t turn my back on her.
I believe strongly that with the right person leading the way, a lost soul can
find their way back to the right path.
Maybe it’s me. That’s why I can’t turn my back now.
The journey itself is a pain in the ass, as all journeys in life usually are…but it’s the end result that I look forward to more than anything.
